A couple days ago I found myself sitting down for a tarot card reading, my second such experience ever. Before I even turned over a single card the reader said to me, “You’re in neutral, aren’t you? You’re stuck in neutral. You’re trying really hard to move forward, but you’re stuck right now, correct?” It was kind of amazing how spot-on her comment was. I do feel stuck, professionally, and that she called it out impressed me.
The tarot card reader’s suggestion was to just coast, just go with the flow. She mentioned that a car in neutral isn’t supposed to move, and that sometimes you need to just keep doing what you’re doing and not push things, no matter how hard you want to. Like this dragon garden decoration I have been spinning my wheels with all the power of any wind and strength around me that I can muster, but I’m not going anywhere at all.
Being okay with not moving, with coasting for a bit, is incredibly difficult for me. This goes beyond my trait of impatience (which I have improved greatly). This is about trusting that whatever I am already doing will lead me to where I am going next - where I am supposed to be for the next stage of my career - is hard to do. I’m not alone in this struggle, but at times I feel I am when others seem to be flying by me on the roads of their lives.
I will attempt to take the reader’s words into consideration and slow down. I already feel I am nearly at a stand-still, but perhaps can aim to be the super cool dragon with flames on the car going nowhere instead of the woman fretting in her Prius over outcomes she can’t determine anyway. We’ll shall see where coasting takes me.